The "reason"

I'm so tired and the internet connection is a bitch! Literally, I'm tired everyday even though I have no idea why am I so tired. Got back home after work, makan, bath, online for a while and then I head straight to my bed and this goes on like everyday, except the days I'm not working. I don't even have the time and mood to blog! [though I really don't know what should I write with an empty brain]

I really miss school time! No matter how many assignments I have, how difficult they are, how I have to burn midnight oil, I never feel so exhausted and I even had insomnia. I used to be a light sleeper, even a tiny beep on my phone can wake me up but nowadays, I had so deep sleep that the phone need to riiiiiiiiiing like mad only I can wake up. Why huh? Perhaps, you really need passion in things you do. [Something I truly believe in!] I don't hate to go to work, don't even have Monday blue [maybe just yet], but I just don't have passion in my current job. I gave up some higher-pay-offer, rejected all other interviews and accepted this job because I thought it is something I'm looking for and something I will love but sadly, it turns out that it is not. I always say one must love something in order to excel in it and even if you don't love it, make yourself love it if you have no choice. I don't love my job but don't get me wrong, I don't hate it either and my colleagues and bosses are all nice people. It's just that I know I have other choices, maybe better choices. So, I decided not to waste everybody's time and seek a new career path.

I feel super duper stress now because I have to make my next choice a RIGHT one! The problem is I don't even know how am I going to determine which is the right choice. *Sigh* I will be really really hate to disappoint anyone again.

*Sigh* Life is all about making choices and now I find that it's not as easy as it seems with all the pressure people give you. Seriously, school time is the BEST!!